Doorway pedestrians
Kicked unconscious
Bleeding and falling away
Cold sweat and hunger
Hosts of their night
Curse the day!
 There they are entangled
In the convulsing bowels
Of her moment
Lining up - stranded
On the far edge - lost
Humanity
 Pale dark faces
Emaciated
Devoid of all dignity
 Shrink back
Hands over ears
Open mouthed agony
Eyes wide in red and blue flashes
Blind sight
 Fierce engines howl
Angry mad beasts
Wounded
Screaming a desperate retreat
Crawling
Toward the end
 What light would you bring
To their suffering
Slice of stale bread
Blank check
Death notice
 Methadone clinic picnics
Get outa here
Hollow - sunken eyes
Begging for release
Prisoners of pain
 All is lost
All is lost

 

 

As I walk through school
I am surprised at how I dont know the walls
And floors as well as I think
As I talk to the floor,
I feel like I have a new friend
Watching over my every move
So I am never lonely
When I am sitting at the cafeteria table,
I stare
Stare at the walls
Stare at the floor
Stare at the ceiling
For some reason, I never stare at people
I guess that I always think
That they will think poorly of me
If I stare at them
How I would just die
To be in a group of people
Where everyone knows everyone else
And everyone are friends
How I long for that attention
And a piece of the spotlight once in a while.

 

 

My heart is breaking
and I feel so alone
Is there no end to this soul taking?
Bits and pieces chipping away
Nobodys here long enough to stay
Emotions flow in but Im not in control
They never flow back out cause inside its a black hole
Every things sucked right into the core
Spining and whirling like never before
Voices yelling, everyone demanding
In the middle of this I am standing
My world is shaking
Going out from under me
Why is my life so foresaking
I am yelling and screaming for someones warm hand
Helping me rise up and aiding me to stand
I cant find the lighted way out
And nobody seems to hear my shout
This black holes sucking me in
Twisting and turning
Forcing me to spin
This black holes pulling me down
Weighting and dragging
Making me sink down
Nobody understands the way I feel
Nobody thinks these emotions are real
Nobody knows; no one can tell
nobody can guess about this hell
My heart is breaking
and I feel so alone
Is there no end to this soul taking?

 

 

I can feel the sunlight filtering through the windows,
I can see it strike the objects with promised vows,
I can feel the wind rustling my hair,
I can feel it whispering words of fear...
Suddenly I feel a chill run up my spine,
Seeing everything from a fog of wine,
Someone holding me with cruel, brutal hands,
My hands tied in tight bands,
Where was I, was my first chilling thought of fear,
Dragging me out through the mist, into the clear,
And then suddenly,
The eyes of a stranger flashed blazingly,
And into the darkness my body fell,
Where was I, I still could not tell,
And then to my surprise I saw mud heaved at me at a frightening pace,
Filling my lungs, covering my face,
I clawed helplessly at the mud above me in layers of five
And then I knew I was buried alive...

 

 

Black mourning cries of failed suicides
Wronged deaths and dead rebirths
From these ashes something rises
And silence sometimes burns
But on to bitter tear stained paths
And homicidal kin
With this black and twisted wrath
Weeps the thing within
Reaching out with cold dead arms
Lovers try to grasp
The thing they lost
In jealous Thoth
And passions bleed their sin
And here resides the fearful past
Better left undone
Things we said to keep our heads
Can only hurt again
There is no beast without cruelty
This is all we have
So to the faithfully departed
Exact their just revenge
Denied of human form and flesh
Harpies at their souls
The thorns of truth prick much too soon
And nothing can be done
Hounds of torture and pain
Odious memories to bear
They try to help the pain without
But grow the pain within

 

 

Looking in the glass
I see a girl
Who looks like she is sad
And unwanted in this world
She is staring back at me
And I feel her pain
Its like she has nothing to lose
Yet nothing to gain
She is stuck in the middle of everything
She cant die
She cant live
So she just remains
Remains like a tree does
when all of its leaves begin to fall
What once was alive
Is now not so alive at all
She stuffs everything in her
And pretends to be okay
While her face carries a smile
Her eyes give it away
Beneath the surface of it all
Lays her heart
It has lots of cuts and scars
Its just been torn apart
The tree is beginning to bloom
The sun starts to shine
Looking in the glass I see
Those eyes were none other than mine.

 

 

The wind chimes are blowing,
But I dont feel the breeze.
The wind chimes are blowing,
But I hear no sound.
The wind chimes are old,
And the wind still blows.
The wind chimes are blowing,
But I cant feel the wind.